“As long as you keep making RFM (Relentless Forward Motion), you will finish.” – Stacey Page
The past few years I’ve spent more days frustrated with my life than I have celebrating and enjoying my life. Everything has been a constant struggle. I feel like I take two steps forward, four or five back. Numerous years later, I am right back where I started from. Perhaps even worse because now I’m also broke.
As I work hard to get things on track it’s easy to get frustrated with the process. I want to have all the money now! I want to run fast now! I want to be a non-drinker/moderate drinker now! Now! Now! Now! I want it all now!
The problem with that thinking is that it took YEARS to get me here. Years of sickness, bills, student loans, gin and wine, sitting on my ass, and general debauchery to get here. It’s not all going to come undone over night. I’m not going to have this perfect life with a sweet 76 El Camino, hot bearded-boyfriend, and an alpaca farm out of nowhere. (Do not judge my dreams, people!)
So, as I sit here frustrated with myself because once again I’ve spent money on something stupid I have to look at the bigger picture. I’ve cut back on my drinking significantly (though not as much as I would like), I’ve been running and am seeing a tiny glimpse of my former runner girl self, and my finances are slowly but surely heading towards a better place.
I just need to be patient and continue moving forward.
Now, let’s cut all the bull shit and get to the important stuff:
Would you come visit me on my sweet alpaca farm and ride in my El Camino? I thing being a hippie, farmer would be great and think of the cute clothes. I look great in a cowboy hat and boots. (Designer, of course.)