It is truly my believe that there is a panda meme for every occasion. For this one, I believe this panda says it all:
I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I had a follow up visit for my myomectomy. At the time, the doc said everything looked good and if everything was ok, then he would send my results via snail mail.
Now, I have to mention that last week I was a bit concerned since I hadn’t received my all clear letter. The test that was a couple of months after my surgery arrived within days. It’s now been a few weeks. I assumed that it was on it’s way or that it got caught between some junk mail and I threw it away. They NEVER send bad news via the mail. Since I hadn’t gotten a call I thought nothing of it.
Today, I got a call from the office. 6 months post surgery and LEEP procedure and I have abnormal cells again.
It’s concerning because there is no HPV found, but the cancer doc says we will wait 4 months and retest. I need to call him tomorrow and let him know that I am spotting as well. I thought nothing of it and when I had my PAP I wasn’t spotting. However, the past couple of weeks I have been.
Shit! I am so fucking tired of this. I’m sick of doctors offices, huge medical bills, swollen abdomens from removing shitloads of tumors, dumb bitches telling me to hurry up and have a baby because OMFG you might need a hysterectomy. I’m tired and just want to be well. If that means hysterectomy then so be it.
Sorry to be such a whiny brat, but yeah. Such is life. Doesn’t help that I’m moving closer to 40 than I want to on Saturday and have nothing to show for it. No house. No dream job. No hottie boyfriend. No cute dog. NOTHING. Just a bunch of abnormal fucking cells in my cervix and a shitload of hospital debt.
Happy birthday to me.