Though I’ve been cleared to get my run/bike/swim/whatever the hell I want on, today marks the first day I actually went to the gym. I did try an ill-fated walk/run a week or so ago. I was out for about 15 minutes and it really did not feel so great. I decided that I would give myself a bit more time to heal and try to just go with what feels ok.
For some reason, this morning felt like the right day to head to the gym. I wasn’t quite sure what I was going to do or how I was going to feel.
I thought that the elliptical trainer would be the least stressful exercise that I could stand. The first few minutes were a bit rough and I was winded within 3 minutes. There was a slight ache around my surgery area (internally) and a bit of discomfort around my incision, but that slowly started to fade as I got further into my “workout”.
Overall, I wound up with 20 minutes on the elliptical at the lowest setting and then a 10 minute walk. Total of 30 minutes “cardio”.
This little workout has left me pretty tired. I’m relaxing for the rest of the day.
I’d be lying if I said I’m not disappointed or frustrated with how long it’s taking me to get back to running or just working out in general. On the other hand, I respect the fact that my body has been through a pretty serious surgery and I need to give it the time it needs to heal. I suppose I just need a little patience.
I don’t think I’ve been this out of shape in years. Not even after my embolism in ’08. I’m also at the heaviest I’ve ever been and it’s getting frustrating and making me feel a bit down. Especially not being able to wear pants. I’m sick of sweatpants and dresses. (I suppose I could go buy some cute dresses. Oh yeah. I owe the hospital shitloads of cash for my surgery.)
Well, I don’t want to get myself and everyone else down. I suppose I’ll just keep moving forward. What else can I do?